I THINK I LOVE YOU TOO, PURELY FOR THIS COMMENT. Seriously, thank you so much for taking the time to do this. ♥ I'm really glad you liked it, and SO GLAD that this is your CM OTP, because I think maybe it might be mine too, no matter how bizarre that is. I ship it so hard.
You totally got what I meant with that line about Reid hurrying out of the flat - it is like he thinks if he gets out of there fast enough he won't have to dwell on it, and that sort of links with Nathan beginning to hang around, too. Like, sort of reminding Reid that he's there, not letting him just put him out of his mind.
to have someone there who is capable of hearing all those things without running must be the most relieving thing. - YES! It feels wrong to feel sorry for Nathan, but I do all the same. I can only imagine how crazy it would drive you having all those things in your mind and not being able to even say them out loud. And I feel like Reid wouldn't be as disturbed by them as most people, due to his line of work, and he'd actually be somewhat willing to listen, just because he cares about Nathan so much.
Oh, I love that you liked that bit in the ninth part too. I actually had a more in-depth version of that scenario in my mind, and I discussed it with someone and it just seemed to make sense that Reid might sort of secretly like that feeling, because he seems to be so oblivious to anyone's sexual interest in him and so to be confronted with it like that, someone being that aroused as a direct result of something he's doing - that would be kind of a big deal. Only, it's so fucked up, because it's not HIM, it's the story of his torture and trauma, and so it all just gets tangled up and wrong in his mind. And I can imagine that leading to him just associating sex with those things. Gah.
Nathan is the manifestation of all of his self-destructiveness. - Yes!!
14 - interesting! I didn't think of it from that angle, but I suppose it's like...they sort of don't want to acknowledge that darkness? Not that Reid WANTS to, but he's sort of being forced to as a result of becoming this involved with Nathan, and for Nathan that darkness is such a huge part of who he is, you know? Reid has to confront it a lot more often, on the show even, and I imagine the rest of the team might just try and shut it out and therefore be less willing to talk to him about it. (Not that they wouldn't at all, but you know, Nathan would pretty much jump at the chance.)
Thank you so much for this comment, again. I would love to write more - I actually thought this would be my last, like I was getting it out of my system, but it just spawned a whole load of other ideas because there are SO MANY possibilities when it comes to these two. So. Maybe. XD
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You totally got what I meant with that line about Reid hurrying out of the flat - it is like he thinks if he gets out of there fast enough he won't have to dwell on it, and that sort of links with Nathan beginning to hang around, too. Like, sort of reminding Reid that he's there, not letting him just put him out of his mind.
to have someone there who is capable of hearing all those things without running must be the most relieving thing. - YES! It feels wrong to feel sorry for Nathan, but I do all the same. I can only imagine how crazy it would drive you having all those things in your mind and not being able to even say them out loud. And I feel like Reid wouldn't be as disturbed by them as most people, due to his line of work, and he'd actually be somewhat willing to listen, just because he cares about Nathan so much.
Oh, I love that you liked that bit in the ninth part too. I actually had a more in-depth version of that scenario in my mind, and I discussed it with someone and it just seemed to make sense that Reid might sort of secretly like that feeling, because he seems to be so oblivious to anyone's sexual interest in him and so to be confronted with it like that, someone being that aroused as a direct result of something he's doing - that would be kind of a big deal. Only, it's so fucked up, because it's not HIM, it's the story of his torture and trauma, and so it all just gets tangled up and wrong in his mind. And I can imagine that leading to him just associating sex with those things. Gah.
Nathan is the manifestation of all of his self-destructiveness. - Yes!!
14 - interesting! I didn't think of it from that angle, but I suppose it's like...they sort of don't want to acknowledge that darkness? Not that Reid WANTS to, but he's sort of being forced to as a result of becoming this involved with Nathan, and for Nathan that darkness is such a huge part of who he is, you know? Reid has to confront it a lot more often, on the show even, and I imagine the rest of the team might just try and shut it out and therefore be less willing to talk to him about it. (Not that they wouldn't at all, but you know, Nathan would pretty much jump at the chance.)
Thank you so much for this comment, again. I would love to write more - I actually thought this would be my last, like I was getting it out of my system, but it just spawned a whole load of other ideas because there are SO MANY possibilities when it comes to these two. So. Maybe. XD