HI!

[hardparade]

I'm not even really sure what this post is for, I just sort of feel like making one? It's been a while. I feel like I've been really ~absent, actually, because I went on holiday and I didn't have much time online because I was too busy being lost in the Scottish countryside and chasing rogue chickens and getting addicted to Bananagrams and playing 'Cow' (a game in which you shout "cow!" when you see a cow). Action-packed vacation, I know. Anyway ever since I've been back I've felt sort of overwhelmed by the internet? And I feel all out of practice with writing, even though it really hasn't been that long? But I'm working on a short little something at the moment and hopefully it'll be finished really soon. :)

OH AND ALSO, LJ is doing this super weird thing where it basically refuses to use the icons I want it to use? Like, I'll select one, and it'll be like NOPE and default to my Anton Yelchin one instead. IDK WHY, I think it's just a glitch, but yeah, if I respond to any of your comments with an Anton Yelchin icon even when it has no relevance whatsoever...that'll be why. I even tried deleting all my icons and re-uploading them and IT DIDN'T WORK. And also I have a suspicion that anyone who tracks my journal might have been notified about that, so uh, sincere apologies if you got a ridiculous amount of messages just because I was obsessively trying to sort this out.

Apparently I really don't have anything interesting to say here but I wanted to reassure you guys that I am still alive and like, around, if anybody wants to talk? I do get sort of scared by this fandom every now and then because of my social anxiety and it can be hard to deal with and some days I'm just like WOW I CAN'T, but for the most part things are still awesome. ♥

I'm gonna finish this off by recommending that you listen to Ed Sheeran's cover of 'Pony' by Ginuwine, and look at this picture of a guinea pig. But not at the same time. That might be a bit weird.

Comments

[downtohades.livejournal.com]

I totally played that cow game when I was in Ireland! :D I thought that was only me. I also played the sheep game. Yeah I played the sheep game more, to the point where I would be playing it while I ate sheep. I don’t know, sudden changes to my lifestyle(…hotels, I guess?) makes me weird and uncontrollably shouty. I was with my mother the whole time, she despaired.

Once again, I’m probably being creepy because you don’t actually know me and here I am, commenting on your post, but I have social anxiety too and talking to anybody in fandom(anywhere actually) scares me quite a bit. I also have the tendency to constantly be like, “Is this creepy?/I don’t mean to be creepy,” which generally makes someone come across creepy and insecure in the first place. But it took me like, 5 years to write anything to anyone on the internet, so yeah I don’t really know how to speak/write. I’m open to, “How to speak/write!” pointers if you have them!

Anyway I hope you post more! Anything really, whether it’s fic or not, because a lot of fandom/the internet intimidates me but I never really got that from you. Hell, I even read your One Direction fic(I’m not their biggest fan, you could say). So yeah, I’m all thrilled with your existence, partially because of Alison Mosshart! <3 (I didn’t actually know who she was before I came across your fic and now I’m always listening to The Kills. :D) And like, I’m not going to lie, my first reaction after sort of meeting the Narnia cast was to look up fanfiction about them(YES, I AM WELL AWARE THAT THAT IS INCREDIBLY CREEPY) but also because I’m the insane person who saw Narnia 12 times in theaters. I DON’T KNOW WHY. BUT I CAN STILL MOSTLY RECITE THAT THING!

And LJ is like an annoying younger brother. Who eats your icons? Wait what? I don’t even have a younger brother so I would know, I have no idea what I’m talking about.

Anyways, I’m totally cool if you’re like, “Please get off my journal now.”

[likecharity.livejournal.com]

We thought about playing the sheep version but there were even more sheep than there were cows, so it might've been a bit much. XD It is weird how you get into the habit of it. My Dad lives sort of in the countryside so when I was on my way here the other day, I found myself shouting "cow!" when I saw cows just because it'd been drilled into my head. And then I had to explain the game, and then he started playing too. IT'S CONTAGIOUS.

You're not creepy, it's fine! I always think I'd rather have people leave comments like this than just lurk, you know? Although maybe I'd be freaked out if everyone who lurks said something, I don't know how many people that would be. XD But it means a lot that you're commenting despite a bit of insecurity about it. I don't really have any pointers, tbh. Some days it comes more easily, and others I'll really struggle over what to say or just end up ignoring messages for a few days because I can't deal with them. It's tricky. :/

Aww haha I'm really glad I'm not intimidating! And it means so much that you read my One Direction fic even though you're not in the fandom, wow. Thank you. ♥ AND YES ALISON MOSSHART. So glad I got you into The Kills, that's awesome. And lol I'm the same about the Narnia films tbh.

I don't have a younger brother either but that does seem like a pretty accurate description. STUPID LJ.