HI!

[hardparade]

I'm not even really sure what this post is for, I just sort of feel like making one? It's been a while. I feel like I've been really ~absent, actually, because I went on holiday and I didn't have much time online because I was too busy being lost in the Scottish countryside and chasing rogue chickens and getting addicted to Bananagrams and playing 'Cow' (a game in which you shout "cow!" when you see a cow). Action-packed vacation, I know. Anyway ever since I've been back I've felt sort of overwhelmed by the internet? And I feel all out of practice with writing, even though it really hasn't been that long? But I'm working on a short little something at the moment and hopefully it'll be finished really soon. :)

OH AND ALSO, LJ is doing this super weird thing where it basically refuses to use the icons I want it to use? Like, I'll select one, and it'll be like NOPE and default to my Anton Yelchin one instead. IDK WHY, I think it's just a glitch, but yeah, if I respond to any of your comments with an Anton Yelchin icon even when it has no relevance whatsoever...that'll be why. I even tried deleting all my icons and re-uploading them and IT DIDN'T WORK. And also I have a suspicion that anyone who tracks my journal might have been notified about that, so uh, sincere apologies if you got a ridiculous amount of messages just because I was obsessively trying to sort this out.

Apparently I really don't have anything interesting to say here but I wanted to reassure you guys that I am still alive and like, around, if anybody wants to talk? I do get sort of scared by this fandom every now and then because of my social anxiety and it can be hard to deal with and some days I'm just like WOW I CAN'T, but for the most part things are still awesome. ♥

I'm gonna finish this off by recommending that you listen to Ed Sheeran's cover of 'Pony' by Ginuwine, and look at this picture of a guinea pig. But not at the same time. That might be a bit weird.

Comments

[shrdmdnssftw.livejournal.com]

Hi! It sounds like you had a very nice holiday :) (and I'm totally playing Cow next time I'm in the countryside, haha).

I don't really know how to start talking to people either, but I love talking so... Hi! I should really be getting ready to go out for the day, but I'm not too bothered, haha. :)

And also, completely disregarded the "not at the same time", and well. I don't know what I want to look at more, because that guinea pig is terribly cute, but I absolutely adore Ed when he's performing.

[likecharity.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it was actually really fun! My cousin came and I hadn't seen her for about a year, so that was nice. :) And Cow is WEIRDLY ADDICTIVE - my cousin told us about it and we were like "lol okay" but we ended up getting so competitive EVEN THOUGH THERE WAS NO SCORING SYSTEM.

I think I've been getting better at the whole talking thing lately, because in this fandom there are so many people to talk to and so many things to discuss, but it's never gonna be my strong point. XD And I am in favour of not being bothered about getting ready to go out! The internet always wins that one.

I UNDERSTAND THE STRUGGLE. Like, Ed is pretty nice to look at in that video. But also Eric (his name is Eric which is hilarious) is probably the most adorable guinea pig in the world?

[shrdmdnssftw.livejournal.com]

Ahh, it's always nice to catch up with family :) haha, and cow sounds like every game ever when you're on a roadtrip, a million times more fun that you expect it to be.

I love this fandom for that reason - I never really talked before I came to this fandom, but I love how open and friendly most of the people are :) and yeah, haha, I pretty much had to run out at that point, since I was already running late, haha.

I spent all of today with that cover in my head, just so you know. And showed it to a couple of my friends. I couldn't stop giggling at how serious he looked, even with those lyrics.

Also, Eric is a pretty cool name, but it just reminds me of someone I know who works in IT, haha.

[prunesquallormd.livejournal.com]

Hey :)

Barely able to focus I'm so tired, so I'll write you a proper comment tomorrow. It's just nice to see you here. Your holiday sounds fab :)

Sorry my email was so late and so rambly!

♥

[prunesquallormd.livejournal.com]

See! I told you LJ was randomly humiliating me by posting my Twilight icon :(
<3

[likecharity.livejournal.com]

I got your email, don't worry about lateness/rambling! ♥

My holiday was fun, yeah. :) And at least your Twilight icon is Alice, she was the coolest character. XD

[prunesquallormd.livejournal.com]

That guinea pig is like "who? me? I have no idea what you're talking about." He's got a guilty secret if I'm any judge ;D

Honestly, it's just really nice to see your personal posts, even if you feel like you don't have much to say. I always like to read them anyway :)

I read your post again just now and 'Cow!' made me laugh out loud this time too. Best game ever!

To be honest, your holiday sounds pretty perfect. I could so do with a holiday like that right now.

It's wonderful to hear that things are mostly awesome <3

(I do rather love Alice. I just tell myself that I haven't sat through the first three films (god, why?!) and that the novel length, and very filthy, Alice/Bella story I read once is actually canon, and the rest is just a horrible, horrible nigtmare XD).


<3

[likecharity.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it was a really nice holiday actually. :) It's just good to get away from everything once in a while I think.

It makes me really happy to know that you like reading my personal posts. ♥ I barely ever make them and usually only when something's bothering me, because I always kind of tell myself that people probably don't care? I don't know.

I totally shipped Alice/Bella when I read the books! Well, the two and a half that I read, anyway. XD Their friendship was pretty much the only decent part...

[prunesquallormd.livejournal.com]

I think you underestimate how much people do care. I think of you as a friend even though we haven't met, and I know there will be others on your flist who feel the same way <3

[prunesquallormd.livejournal.com]

For some reason you were the first person I thought of when I saw this:-

http://thiliart.livejournal.com/51152.html

so I thought I'd share it with you :D

I hope you're well <3

[likecharity.livejournal.com]

Ooooh that's gorgeous! Thanks for linking me. :)

[flyingkai.livejournal.com]

re: the icon thing, LJ has been having a shitload of problems lately (comments are being double-posted at the end of the page like whoa for about a week now) so I wouldn't worry about it--it's not you, it's them.

[likecharity.livejournal.com]

Oh, I hadn't heard about that! UGH LJ SORT YOUR SHIT OUT

[alexi-lupin.livejournal.com]

On the plus side, I can't see one Anton Yelchin in this post yet!

[likecharity.livejournal.com]

It seems to be intermittent, 'cause he's popping up again now. :|

[alexi-lupin.livejournal.com]

Oh yeah, he's back. :/

[likecharity.livejournal.com]

He's showing up again now! It just seems to happen at random, sigh. But you're right, he is very pretty, so it could be worse. XD

Aww, that's so sweet, I'm really glad! ♥ With my anxiety I do still worry that people don't actually want to hear what I have to say, so that means a lot. And yeah this fandom is so overwhelming, it can be quite intimidating. :/

And there's no hurry with the comments, honestly! I'm just glad you're enjoying the fic. ♥ I'm gonna reply to your Weeds message once I've watched the new episode, btw. :)

[avahroth.livejournal.com]

nice pic! and very nice cover!!

I am so glad you re back!! Not gonna lie, checking your LJfor updates and finding it frozen got me down a bit :(

Dont you worry though! Somebody as talented as yourself will recover quick! Plus you are alliwed, sadly, a personnallife. Sonetimes I just want to chain all my favorite authors in my basement and have you all writing for me ;)

Antmyway, I hope you had a nice time?

[likecharity.livejournal.com]

:)

Aww sorry about that! I thought about posting before I left, to let people know I was going to be away, but I did that on Tumblr and Twitter and I didn't want to make it seem like I was making a big deal of things. XD

Well, you're very lucky that I don't have much of a social life, haha! It's pretty rare for me to go away like that, though obviously I do suffer from writer's block from time to time. I'm working through it.

I did, thank you! ♥

[avahroth.livejournal.com]

Oh well, give me your tumblr so next time I'm aware of it :D

I feel bad that I'm lucky then :/ social life is goood!!

And I'm glad you had a good time :D

[likecharity.livejournal.com]

I'm likecharity on Tumblr as well!

[downtohades.livejournal.com]

I totally played that cow game when I was in Ireland! :D I thought that was only me. I also played the sheep game. Yeah I played the sheep game more, to the point where I would be playing it while I ate sheep. I don’t know, sudden changes to my lifestyle(…hotels, I guess?) makes me weird and uncontrollably shouty. I was with my mother the whole time, she despaired.

Once again, I’m probably being creepy because you don’t actually know me and here I am, commenting on your post, but I have social anxiety too and talking to anybody in fandom(anywhere actually) scares me quite a bit. I also have the tendency to constantly be like, “Is this creepy?/I don’t mean to be creepy,” which generally makes someone come across creepy and insecure in the first place. But it took me like, 5 years to write anything to anyone on the internet, so yeah I don’t really know how to speak/write. I’m open to, “How to speak/write!” pointers if you have them!

Anyway I hope you post more! Anything really, whether it’s fic or not, because a lot of fandom/the internet intimidates me but I never really got that from you. Hell, I even read your One Direction fic(I’m not their biggest fan, you could say). So yeah, I’m all thrilled with your existence, partially because of Alison Mosshart! <3 (I didn’t actually know who she was before I came across your fic and now I’m always listening to The Kills. :D) And like, I’m not going to lie, my first reaction after sort of meeting the Narnia cast was to look up fanfiction about them(YES, I AM WELL AWARE THAT THAT IS INCREDIBLY CREEPY) but also because I’m the insane person who saw Narnia 12 times in theaters. I DON’T KNOW WHY. BUT I CAN STILL MOSTLY RECITE THAT THING!

And LJ is like an annoying younger brother. Who eats your icons? Wait what? I don’t even have a younger brother so I would know, I have no idea what I’m talking about.

Anyways, I’m totally cool if you’re like, “Please get off my journal now.”

[likecharity.livejournal.com]

We thought about playing the sheep version but there were even more sheep than there were cows, so it might've been a bit much. XD It is weird how you get into the habit of it. My Dad lives sort of in the countryside so when I was on my way here the other day, I found myself shouting "cow!" when I saw cows just because it'd been drilled into my head. And then I had to explain the game, and then he started playing too. IT'S CONTAGIOUS.

You're not creepy, it's fine! I always think I'd rather have people leave comments like this than just lurk, you know? Although maybe I'd be freaked out if everyone who lurks said something, I don't know how many people that would be. XD But it means a lot that you're commenting despite a bit of insecurity about it. I don't really have any pointers, tbh. Some days it comes more easily, and others I'll really struggle over what to say or just end up ignoring messages for a few days because I can't deal with them. It's tricky. :/

Aww haha I'm really glad I'm not intimidating! And it means so much that you read my One Direction fic even though you're not in the fandom, wow. Thank you. ♥ AND YES ALISON MOSSHART. So glad I got you into The Kills, that's awesome. And lol I'm the same about the Narnia films tbh.

I don't have a younger brother either but that does seem like a pretty accurate description. STUPID LJ.

[sofiawonderland.livejournal.com]

Heeeeeeey! *hugs*

I've been awfully absent from the internet (especially livejournal) lately too, and I feel weird but then I think of making yet another "HEY GUYS I'M ALIVE IT'S COOL I'M JUST BAD AT THE INTERNET SOMETIMES" post and it feels like I'm going to be annoying if I do that so instead I just sort of lurk around my favorite journals and comment here and there. Idek why I'm telling you this, I guess I just felt like talking. I blame it on it being nearly 3AM here and, you know, sleep deprivation is my excuse for most everything.

So, er, heeeeeeeeey! I'm glad you had a fun vacation even if the action of it consisted mostly of playing Cow (I would totally play that if I ever went to the countryside. But my family's house is at the beach so there aren't any cows there. Er. Maybe next time I'm visiting my aunt in Nottingham or something, I think there are possibly cows in the Nottingham countryside, although I don't really remember any from the last time I was there, just lots of rabbits and squirrels and adorable fluffy animals running around the woods. See, way too much talking, sleep deprivation, etc etc). Aaaaand I'm really glad you're here and well and alive because, well, you're a pretty awesome girl (which I've probably told you like a thousand times, but I feel like saying again) and it makes me happy that you're happy and okay.

I'm just going to shut up now because this whole comment isn't making a lot of sense and I seriously need to go to bed. But, yeah, hey again, nice to hear from you, here, have more hugs.

♥

[likecharity.livejournal.com]

HI YOU. *hugs*

Yeah, I usually try not to make this kind of post because it does always feel a bit pointless/annoying, but I think sometimes it's good? Like, people might be wondering where the hell you are. But I can see how you wouldn't want to have like an entire journal made up of those sorts of posts or something.

Lol yeah I made it sound like we barely did anything, we did actually go out pretty much every day but we were mostly visiting like castles and things that I didn't find particularly interesting. XD It was a lot of fun seeing my cousin and looking after all the animals though. And I recommend trying 'Cow' if you ever get the chance. XD Omg there were wild rabbits around where we were staying too (as well as pet ones) and it was SO COOL. I actually nearly stepped on a tiny baby one that was cowering under some leaves in a field. :( I really hope it hadn't been totally abandoned or anything. It was so cute, look:



ANYWAY. You are a pretty awesome girl yourself and I hope things are going well for you. ♥

[justwolf.livejournal.com]

I love how guinea pigs can look happy and startled at the same time.

I'm glad you had a good holiday! I have never played Cow but now I feel like I should.

[likecharity.livejournal.com]

This (http://i.imgur.com/SUqXl.jpg) is my favourite one of him looking startled. :)

Thank you! And yeah you should totally try playing Cow! It's so much more fun than you expect, I'm not quite sure why...

[anoncents.livejournal.com]

Hi, I don't think I've ever talked to you before, so let's talk a little bit!

The thing I'm thinking about lately is..ok. You know the Nickelodeon prank? After the reveal~, this man comes up to Harry and gives him a hug.

(http://tinypic.com?ref=2n8rmt0)

And then I came across this random .gif earlier today and noticed in the background, Harry with possibly the same guy? Maaaybe? Too difficult to tell.

(http://tinypic.com?ref=qmx4ld)

Who knows. I was just curious about this person. Like all I know is that their tour manager is named Paul. (..right?)

Another thing on my mind...ZAYN. Jesus Christ, this guy is good-looking. You probably know how many times I've come across a photo of him and went 'fuck you, Zayn!'

[likecharity.livejournal.com]

Hi! What's weird is that that guy does actually look vaguely familiar, but I don't know who he is? He could just be a guy who was working with them for the Nick thing. I can't tell if it's the same person in both photos.

[henny4you.livejournal.com]

I liked it. It was nice pictures, pretty people ;)