i'm not trying to wake you up

I feel like it's a good time for me to do that meme where you post snippets from unfinished fic that you have lying around. I have eleven, some are ones I'm currently working on, and some are completely stalled and/or ancient and I feel like they may as well be shared.

All Narnia RPF, not surprisingly! There's a whole bunch of pairings, and ratings vary but go up to NC-17. Anything else worth warning for is specified in the heading above the extract.


1. Skandar/Ben/Georgie – ha, this is literally all I have for this. There was a prompt on the kink meme about Skandar and Georgie teaming up together to seduce Ben, and…that was relevant to my interests.

"He's bisexual," Skandar snaps, "we both have a chance."

"He likes girls better," Georgie fires back.

"Legal girls, maybe," Skandar retorts, and Georgie pouts at him.

( +10 under the cut! )

This post is partly a way of making up for not posting much fic lately.

It is also partly because it seems like I have to do that 'post snippets of every unfinished fic you have on your hard drive' meme at least once a year.

But mostly it's because I recently got a new laptop (my old one was falling apart—literally) and had to transfer all my files, and that led to me discovering a whole bunch of things I'd saved and totally forgotten about.

The ratings of these vary, but go up pretty high. And some of the ideas are kinda fucked up but you can figure that out from the pairing and avoid as you see fit—no other warnings necessary, I don't think!

( The Kills/The Dead Weather/Kate Moss/what even is this fandom. )

( Narnia RPF. )

( Skins, including RPF. (And, um, Skins RPF/Narnia RPF?) )

( Kings of Leon (and Jared Followill/Demi Lovato) )

Woah, check out this mass of tags. Crazy business.

* Pick up to 15 OTPs.
* Describe them in less than 15 words.
* Have your flist guess the OTP.

1. romance between two in a group of four. magical reunions. together forever, even in death. - Remus/Sirius, guessed by moogle62
   
2. only one he truly cares about. take away the vodka and cigarettes, tuck her in. - Tony/Effy, guessed by letmypidgeonsgo
   
3. thrones and crowns, swords and shields. sins work differently in different worlds. - Peter/Edmund, guessed by thisissirius
   
4. fuckin' loves him, can't say what he means through all the spliff smoke and spirits. - Cook/Freddie, guessed by letmypidgeonsgo
   
5. makes sense somehow in this fucked-up family, sharing a room to keep him alive. - Frank/Dwayne, guessed by lovestories
   
6. fierce devotion through the flames; take flight, they can save the world together. - Nathan/Peter, guessed by letmypidgeonsgo
   
7. writer/hairdresser. they're each other's anchors. so much build-up, not what they thought it would be. - Shane/Jenny, guessed by i_am_may and lettersandliars
   
8. fame's too much sometimes. clinging to faith despite what happens when the spotlights go out. - Joe/Nick, guessed by expastic
   
9. always there when he needs him, sort of owns him (mostly in a good way). - Tony/Sid, guessed by letmypidgeonsgo
   
10. do everything together. jokes, pranks, stolen kisses in secretly-shared beds. gonna be together again someday. - Fred/George, guessed by letmypidgeonsgo
    
11. girl next door (more or less), kinda can't take his eyes off her sometimes. - Skandar/Anna, guessed by lettersandliars
    
12. only for the first couple of rounds. backcombed hair and offbeat humour. - Noel/Russell, guessed by londonplease
    
13. all that's running through his veins, they're one and the same under all visual alterations. - Tom/Bill, guessed by letmypidgeonsgo
    
14. grow up together through sugar highs and tea stains. share hotel rooms and more. - Will/Skandar, guessed by thisissirius
    
15. never gonna be done with him, not really. bad movie tuesdays and tickets to oprah. - Drake/Josh, guessed by luvscharlie and thisissirius

These are probably really easy, I fail at subtlety. I also fail at SHORTNESS, it took me like forever to do this 'cause I had to keep cutting them down. This is why I can't write drabbles.

ALSO. Go check out the Skins Anonymous Kink Meme, there are tons of prompts but not many have been filled yet. I've got a few in mind that I want to write but agh, I've got SO MANY things to write at the moment. I know there are requests you guys gave me ages ago that I still haven't filled and I'm so, so sorry for that. It just seems like I can't force anything right now and just have to write when I feel inspired. I REALLY HOPE THEY'LL GET DONE SOMEDAY THOUGH 'CAUSE THEY'RE AWESOME.

Aaand, I gave my masterlist a makeover if you wanna go check that out. :)

...I swear I had like fifty random things to update about and I was going to make like, a neat post of all of them, but I really can't think of the rest now. Damn.

Things that made me happy today:

- Talking to my sister, it'd been a while. ♥
- Starting to write a slightly cracky fic about Ben getting a part in Twilight.
- Starting to watch Merlin! Which I'm enjoying, although my lack of attraction to Colin Morgan puzzles me, seeing as he basically looks like a mixture between Harry Treadaway and Skandar Keynes, both of whom I find ridiculously good-looking.

+ =

Idk, it makes no sense. But I am only half way through the second episode, so, you know, we'll give it time. :D

First of all, ( BEN BARNES NEEDS TO STOP MAKING ME FIND HIM ATTRACTIVE IN RECENT PICTURES. )

ALSO, I have two unfinished Skandar/Anna/Ben fics. Two. HI, THAT IS CLEARLY INSANE. One was weird enough, and now I have two, and I can't decide which one to continue because they've both come to a sudden standstill, and is there even any point in carrying on with either, really, because once again, y'know, INSANE.

The first one I quite like the structure of and there's quite a bit of plot, and plenty of weird!Ben which makes me lol even though I wrote it. It involves voyeur!Skandar (and also drunk!Skandar, which is always fun) and there's a bit where Ben talks to hotel staff while only wearing a bedsheet. And I really like the way I've written the Ben/Anna, because it's not a ship that I like, but it's all pretty casual and Anna has him wrapped around her little finger which is how I totally see their non-existant relationship.

The second one was when I decided to ditch the plot. It's a lot more angsty and smutty and Ben and Skandar have this hot rivalry thing going on.

I'm totally stuck now though because I like what I've got of both, but I can't combine them, like...at all. And I really don't know where I'm going with either. The first one would be a LOT harder to try and finish because it is SO HARD to go from plot and humour to porn. Without making the porn funny too, and I don't really want to do that. The second one I could probably finish, actually, if I just put in a bit more effort, but idk whether anything should happen between Ben and Skandar, and I stopped writing in the middle of the smut and that's always hard to get back to.

( HERE, HAVE A SNIPPET OF EACH. )

SO NOW THE QUESTION IS, WHAT SHOULD I DO?

( HERE IS A POLL TO MAKE THINGS MORE SIMPLE. )

THAT IS ALL, I WILL GO BACK TO QUIETLY STRESSING OUT NOW.

Errrrm.

I...am writing Anna/Georgie.

I don't really have anything to say to defend myself. I was writing my Will/Skandar/Anna, and it was all happy and fluffy and I was really enjoying myself, and now all of a sudden I'm writing some kind of really angsty femslash future!fic.

I'm just gonna wait and see where this goes.

*shrug*

2,560 words of Petrellicest! *dances*

That is all.

Oh wait, no it's not! shoebox_project updated! SHOEBOX. I know that was yesterday, but I still can't get over the excitement of it -- it's been so long. I can't even express my love for Shoebox anymore, I just end up all incoherent with joy. ♥

I'm kind of starting to panic about my inability to write Petrellicest. :(

The thing is, I'm sure that just by saying that -- and thinking it all the time -- I'm like, reinforcing the idea, which can't be good. It's probably just that I've built it up so much and put a lot of pressure on myself...I love the ship so much that I want whatever I write to be perfect, so it's like I'm intimidating myself. Or something.

I have been trying, pretty regularly for the past few weeks, but every time I start I just end up not liking whatever I've written, and scrapping it, and then getting worried that I'll never be able to write anything.

For one thing I think I need a more specific idea, because my ideas are allll over the place.

And then I need to relax and take some time and just try stuff out until it works, instead of freaking out if I write something I'm not happy with. I don't think I've ever had this problem before. Well, I have, but only with specific fics, not a pairing in general.

Also, I think it's interesting that Heroes is the first fandom I've ever even considered reading genfic for. I've read quite a bit and really enjoyed it, and I think that's pretty cool, because most of the time the idea of genfic bores me. But Heroes has created such an interesting, you know, universe, that fic doesn't need to be pairing-oriented for it to be good. Or for me to want to read it, anyway, apparently, haha.

My other news (lolol was that stuff really 'news'??) is that I've started learning Italian! I was saying before how I wanted something to do with all my free time now that I've left school, and I've always been really interested in languages. I learnt German (very badly, because the teaching was crap) and French (for about five months) at school. It was seeing eryslash's, kimmy_dreamer's and fiorediloto's occasional Italian posts that got me interested, I think, just because the language looks so pretty. :)

So I've bought some books and CDs and stuff, and my Dad's apartment now looks like a high school Italian classroom, seriously, everything is labelled in Italian with the pronunciation written underneath. XD I'm still really just beginning. My sister's been learning Spanish for a few years and she started that by teaching herself, so she's been really helpful. :)

Aaaanyway. Back to trying desperately to write some Petrellicest. *sigh*

Guys, I'm writing Kaiser Chiefs fic.

Why does this happen? I've got like a billion other fics on the go, ones that I've been writing for...ever, and here I am writing KAISER CHIEFS FIC.

Damn you, Ricky Wilson, for being on that repeat of Never Mind The Buzzcocks last night, and inspiring this. I HAVE OTHER THINGS TO DO.