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[hardparade]

I'm kind of starting to panic about my inability to write Petrellicest. :(

The thing is, I'm sure that just by saying that -- and thinking it all the time -- I'm like, reinforcing the idea, which can't be good. It's probably just that I've built it up so much and put a lot of pressure on myself...I love the ship so much that I want whatever I write to be perfect, so it's like I'm intimidating myself. Or something.

I have been trying, pretty regularly for the past few weeks, but every time I start I just end up not liking whatever I've written, and scrapping it, and then getting worried that I'll never be able to write anything.

For one thing I think I need a more specific idea, because my ideas are allll over the place.

And then I need to relax and take some time and just try stuff out until it works, instead of freaking out if I write something I'm not happy with. I don't think I've ever had this problem before. Well, I have, but only with specific fics, not a pairing in general.

Also, I think it's interesting that Heroes is the first fandom I've ever even considered reading genfic for. I've read quite a bit and really enjoyed it, and I think that's pretty cool, because most of the time the idea of genfic bores me. But Heroes has created such an interesting, you know, universe, that fic doesn't need to be pairing-oriented for it to be good. Or for me to want to read it, anyway, apparently, haha.

My other news (lolol was that stuff really 'news'??) is that I've started learning Italian! I was saying before how I wanted something to do with all my free time now that I've left school, and I've always been really interested in languages. I learnt German (very badly, because the teaching was crap) and French (for about five months) at school. It was seeing eryslash's, kimmy_dreamer's and fiorediloto's occasional Italian posts that got me interested, I think, just because the language looks so pretty. :)

So I've bought some books and CDs and stuff, and my Dad's apartment now looks like a high school Italian classroom, seriously, everything is labelled in Italian with the pronunciation written underneath. XD I'm still really just beginning. My sister's been learning Spanish for a few years and she started that by teaching herself, so she's been really helpful. :)

Aaaanyway. Back to trying desperately to write some Petrellicest. *sigh*

Comments

[kimmy-dreamer.livejournal.com]

I'm kind of starting to panic about my inability to write Petrellicest. :(

It's a grave disease, called 'morality', which usually unables you both to read and to write it. Trust me, I know. But don't worry, you're going to heal. XDDDDDD (yeees, because MY ship is sooo moral, instead!!!...)

I love the ship so much that I want whatever I write to be perfect

You're totally normal, dear, don't worry... things that may happen. It's not negative if you care of the ship that much. The only thing is - try. It's the only way. Then it's going to be suddenly better. And sorry if I dare, but what I previously read from you wasn't bad at all, as I already told you!

I've started learning Italian!

You're mad, girl - why the hell are you hurting yourself that much?! °° XDDDD

It was seeing [info]eryslash's, [info]kimmy_dreamer's and [info]fiorediloto's occasional Italian posts that got me interested, I think, just because the language looks so pretty. :)

Awwww, you're so nice, darling! <3 They may also look pretty, and so may the language, but the fact is that it's quite *cough*useless*cough*. Anyway, good luck! Anything you need, I'm here :P

[likecharity.livejournal.com]

Hahaha MORALITY, of course, that must be it. XD I hope I heal soon. :(

Yeah, I know, I just really need to keep trying. And relax about it, because I think when I worry too much, it just makes it worse. Thank you for your support. ♥ I'm glad you liked what I wrote before. Somehow it was easier having Claire in there too, though, it took the pressure off the Nathan/Peter a bit, I think. But I want to write them on their own...*sigh*

Hee. I know it won't actually be that useful (unless I go to Italy!!) but I don't really mind, I just want to learn a language properly and it seemed like fun. I may end up regretting it in a few weeks when I'm totally confused and it's really difficult, though, haha. And I'm glad I have Italians on my flist to help me! So thank you. :D

[kimmy-dreamer.livejournal.com]

But I want to write them on their own...*sigh*

Honestly (personal experience) I think that setting it in a context where Peter and Nathan are a bit younger than now it would be easier.

[likecharity.livejournal.com]

Yes, I agree! I'm doing that, actually. It's kind of a how-things-began fic.

[fiorediloto.livejournal.com]

Ooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhh.

[fiorediloto.livejournal.com]

AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh girl, you're SO one of us! *hugs*


And don't listen to stupid Kimmy sending you messages like this (*pokes Kimmy with a carrot until she dies*):

the fact is that it's quite *cough*useless*cough*

Since you've got English, every other language is deliciously useless from the start. Italian! Italian! *takes out an Italian flag and starts singing* *not the Italian hymn, just singing*

[likecharity.livejournal.com]

Eeeh! *hugs back* Thank you for the support!! I hope I can do it, I'm doing quite well so far...my pronunciation might not be very good (I can't roll my 'R's for one thing) but I probably won't be speaking it that much anyway.

Yes, that's what I thought! I mean, there isn't really any other language that would be 'useful'.

*joins in with the singing*

[likecharity.livejournal.com]

Do you know where Ery is, btw?? Is Eledh still visiting? I haven't seen her on LJ for a while...

[fiorediloto.livejournal.com]

Oh, she's got another guest at home but she'll be back soon (don't know when exactly)...

[kimmy-dreamer.livejournal.com]

IF I'M NOT WRONG, I WAS GIVING HER ADVICES ABOUT HOW TO WRITE THOSE FILTHY AND AND PERVERSE THINGS! XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

The fact is that you're suffering, aha.

[fiorediloto.livejournal.com]

I am, and that's all your fault, you heteromaniac!