FUCKING FINISHED. THIS. omg. it's gonna be in several parts, LOL FUCK ME, SORRY, but i hope it makes you as happy as you've made me LOL /cheesy
okay so the first song THE FIRST SONG i looove that haunting voice in the background, it's like reid's LIFE, the nightmares he lives every day, and the slow burn of black francis' voice is just the grate of everythinggg LOL I'M GETTING INTO THIS. and yoouu: He's smarter than this. He's so, so much smarter than this. and the lyricsss WHERE IS MY MIND because reid's gotta be losing it to ignore all the signs of how badly this could turn out but he doesn't caaare. AND THE FACT THAT THIS SONG IS THE FIRST ON THE MIX AND THE INTRO OF THE ACTUAL EPISODE IS THAT A CONNECTION I SEE THAT CONNECTION I KNOOOW.
I'M TIRED OF FEELING SICK AND NOT THROWING UP like nathan's this constant weight at the bottom of his stomach that he's constantly worrying and thinking about AND IT DOESN'T GO AWAY because this kid is someone that sought him out and not the other way around, he has a responsibility now and maybe he doesn't want to give it up. awwh garcia finding a rough draft that reid would definitely keep in a notebook and not really ever forget about. AND NATHAN LEAVING AFTER TURNING 18 because yesss he'd be like he's never going to get better what's the poinntt and maybe that's at the back of reid's mind tooo because "Gideon said it was only a matter of time" BUT THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE. AND ALSO in the lyrics, I just sit around at night and avoid the day, If I do anything at all, it would be to get up, And avoid conversation and human contact and nooow like reid and nathan sitting alone together in reid's place, quiet, in the dark, alooone, not saying anything, just being therrre lol
This is how Nathan starts spending the night at Reid's apartment. THIS IS HOW NATHAN STARTS SPENDING THE NIGHT AT REID'S APARTMENT I MIGHT LOVE YOU YESS. and reid knowing every chance he has to stop it but he doesnn'tt AND LATER, SLEEPING WITH LIMBS INTERTWINING, WHERE IS THIS EPISOOODE. and the team teasing reid about some woman BUT LOOOL I DON'T THINK SO. a new disease came in the post for me today i love this soooong.
GUH. here's reid trying to help this kid get over his urges to kill someone but it just basically backfires because this might be even worse, FEMORAL ARTERIES, this is serious shit, and if he came home one day and nathan was there, but not really, lying, motionless, stark against the pool of his own--his own--fuck. COULD YOU IMAGINE auugh. AND THEN YOUR FIC HAPPENS, WHERE REID LETS NATHAN DO WHAT HE NEEDS TO, JUST. ohoho~.
this song for nathannn goood. the steady tempo just like wanting to kill the thoughts that are constantly in nathan's mind, always fucking there, and they get more and more intense, until he gets to see dr. reid, DR. REID, and then it all just sort of drops off. LIKE A VICIOUS CYCLE AND THIS SOOONG. omg, listening to it on repeat, idek where it ends, IT NEVER ENDS. /SOB that's better than any therapy he's ever had JUST SOMEONE UNDERSTANDING. that's it.
WITH YOUR FINGERS YOU CAN TOOOUUUCH MEE unf. i will never stop listening to this miiix. at worst, he is giving him ideas OMG the team taking on a case and the murders are like a series of cases he explained to nathan LIKE NATHAN COPIED THE CASES REID TOLD HIM ABOUT NGGGH giving him ideasss. and nathan getting excited dear god and reid wanting him to know what it's like to feel a heartbeat without wanting to destroy it THISSS. FUCKED UP INDEED. buy a ticket and get on the train THAT TOO. reid realizing he can't fix nathan and being unable to take the team's questioning and pitying looks and THEY GET ON A TRAIN, NATHAN AND REID GET ON A TRAIN, TO JUST GO, TO GET AWAY, BECAUSE NATHAN IS REID'S RESPONSIBILITY.
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Date: 2011-03-30 05:06 am (UTC)okay so the first song THE FIRST SONG i looove that haunting voice in the background, it's like reid's LIFE, the nightmares he lives every day, and the slow burn of black francis' voice is just the grate of everythinggg LOL I'M GETTING INTO THIS. and yoouu: He's smarter than this. He's so, so much smarter than this. and the lyricsss WHERE IS MY MIND because reid's gotta be losing it to ignore all the signs of how badly this could turn out but he doesn't caaare. AND THE FACT THAT THIS SONG IS THE FIRST ON THE MIX AND THE INTRO OF THE ACTUAL EPISODE IS THAT A CONNECTION I SEE THAT CONNECTION I KNOOOW.
I'M TIRED OF FEELING SICK AND NOT THROWING UP like nathan's this constant weight at the bottom of his stomach that he's constantly worrying and thinking about AND IT DOESN'T GO AWAY because this kid is someone that sought him out and not the other way around, he has a responsibility now and maybe he doesn't want to give it up. awwh garcia finding a rough draft that reid would definitely keep in a notebook and not really ever forget about. AND NATHAN LEAVING AFTER TURNING 18 because yesss he'd be like he's never going to get better what's the poinntt and maybe that's at the back of reid's mind tooo because "Gideon said it was only a matter of time" BUT THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE. AND ALSO in the lyrics, I just sit around at night and avoid the day, If I do anything at all, it would be to get up, And avoid conversation and human contact and nooow like reid and nathan sitting alone together in reid's place, quiet, in the dark, alooone, not saying anything, just being therrre lol
This is how Nathan starts spending the night at Reid's apartment. THIS IS HOW NATHAN STARTS SPENDING THE NIGHT AT REID'S APARTMENT I MIGHT LOVE YOU YESS. and reid knowing every chance he has to stop it but he doesnn'tt AND LATER, SLEEPING WITH LIMBS INTERTWINING, WHERE IS THIS EPISOOODE. and the team teasing reid about some woman BUT LOOOL I DON'T THINK SO. a new disease came in the post for me today i love this soooong.
GUH. here's reid trying to help this kid get over his urges to kill someone but it just basically backfires because this might be even worse, FEMORAL ARTERIES, this is serious shit, and if he came home one day and nathan was there, but not really, lying, motionless, stark against the pool of his own--his own--fuck. COULD YOU IMAGINE auugh. AND THEN YOUR FIC HAPPENS, WHERE REID LETS NATHAN DO WHAT HE NEEDS TO, JUST. ohoho~.
this song for nathannn goood. the steady tempo just like wanting to kill the thoughts that are constantly in nathan's mind, always fucking there, and they get more and more intense, until he gets to see dr. reid, DR. REID, and then it all just sort of drops off. LIKE A VICIOUS CYCLE AND THIS SOOONG. omg, listening to it on repeat, idek where it ends, IT NEVER ENDS. /SOB that's better than any therapy he's ever had JUST SOMEONE UNDERSTANDING. that's it.
WITH YOUR FINGERS YOU CAN TOOOUUUCH MEE unf. i will never stop listening to this miiix. at worst, he is giving him ideas OMG the team taking on a case and the murders are like a series of cases he explained to nathan LIKE NATHAN COPIED THE CASES REID TOLD HIM ABOUT NGGGH giving him ideasss. and nathan getting excited dear god and reid wanting him to know what it's like to feel a heartbeat without wanting to destroy it THISSS. FUCKED UP INDEED. buy a ticket and get on the train THAT TOO. reid realizing he can't fix nathan and being unable to take the team's questioning and pitying looks and THEY GET ON A TRAIN, NATHAN AND REID GET ON A TRAIN, TO JUST GO, TO GET AWAY, BECAUSE NATHAN IS REID'S RESPONSIBILITY.