THIS. IS. PERFECTION. these little therapy sessions with reid are killing me. AND AT THE END, But then he nods, and says, "I do. God, but I do." i cannot imagine how, idk, happy, or, or, at ease or something nathan felt after reid said that, how leveled out everything became because nathan's not alone in this, and even if reid says IT SHOULDN'T REALLY BE LIKE THIS, there's this moment, this mooomennt, where reid said, yeah, i know AND THE UNDERSTANDING THAT COMES WITH IT. the lyrics on this one are insane. jfc.
Thoughts manifest themselves in the background of other thoughts, grow from tiny seeds into tall trees in the blink of an eye and then it's too late. You can't uproot them. I LOOOVE THIS. idek. YOU CAN'T UPROOT THEM. lol IDK i just really like it. and if nathan's farther gone that he might expect, pleeaase don't go down that road again, reid will always be there, no matter how hard it gets, even if it goes too far, he'll be therrre. AND THE WAY REID'S UPSET AND URGENT, come ooon, nathan, DON'T DO IT. your writing does ridiculous things to me.
first off, this song. i've never heard of david thomas broughton and listening to this song is different, i guess, unique, and i actually really like it. his voice is just. i almost feel as though he's speaking a different language and it's just very flow-y lol TO THE FIC. listening to broughton's voice while imagining reid going on about being kidnapped and tortured, probably in a quick little voice, it's like this contrast of the peace from the beginning of the song with the situation that reid's explaining that gets nathan's heart racing and muscles twitching until the song bursts into this multitude of sounds and nathan can't take it anymore and needs to leave to (presumably lol) jerk off about something that's caused reid so much grief and then the repeat kicks in and the song starts out all quiet again and reid is facing the wall, unable to move and it's silent. THAT'S HOW MUCH I GOT FROM THAT LITTLE FIC LOLOL
that's one of the things i loved so much about nathan's episode, the fact that he left reid's card on the table, just, whatever his reasoning, he wanted reid there to see how quickly he was crumbling and to maybe help him and the way the therapists latch onto that, so truee, and just this song in general, nathan didn't ask to be like this, no one would, and he's just looking for help, looking for dr. reiddd
IT'S KINDA NICE COMING HOME TO A POTENTIAL PSYCHOPATH RIGHT RIGHT. thisss. baby nathan, so insecure, he can't possibly have someone like reid in his life for real, it's gotta end sometime, there's really no way he deserves someone like reeeid. and just always waiting for reid to actually kick him out, nooo, neverrr, reid wouldn't even think about it, rejecting the kid, there's no wayyy. fuck I JUST WANT THEM TO BE HAPPY lolol oh and nathan wearing reid's clothes? WEARING REID'S CLOTHES? I CAN'T EVEN.
reid waking up from nightmares and nathan being there, being stronger for once, and trying to comfort reid but he can't help the way he gets off on reid's ticking heartbeat, the fear in his eyes, so he kisses him and i wonder if it's difficult for nathan, wanting to be a comfort to reid, trying to make him feel safe but there's this thing inside him that won't let him completely do that because it's the cool sweat on reid's forehead, the way his breathing is all staccato, these things make him want when he should only be givinggg why is everything so angstyyy lol and reid giving in when nathan kisses him, even though he's knows it's not totally right, because he really is a fucked-up kid but what does that make reid?
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Date: 2011-03-30 05:08 am (UTC)Thoughts manifest themselves in the background of other thoughts, grow from tiny seeds into tall trees in the blink of an eye and then it's too late. You can't uproot them. I LOOOVE THIS. idek. YOU CAN'T UPROOT THEM. lol IDK i just really like it. and if nathan's farther gone that he might expect, pleeaase don't go down that road again, reid will always be there, no matter how hard it gets, even if it goes too far, he'll be therrre. AND THE WAY REID'S UPSET AND URGENT, come ooon, nathan, DON'T DO IT. your writing does ridiculous things to me.
first off, this song. i've never heard of david thomas broughton and listening to this song is different, i guess, unique, and i actually really like it. his voice is just. i almost feel as though he's speaking a different language and it's just very flow-y lol TO THE FIC. listening to broughton's voice while imagining reid going on about being kidnapped and tortured, probably in a quick little voice, it's like this contrast of the peace from the beginning of the song with the situation that reid's explaining that gets nathan's heart racing and muscles twitching until the song bursts into this multitude of sounds and nathan can't take it anymore and needs to leave to (presumably lol) jerk off about something that's caused reid so much grief and then the repeat kicks in and the song starts out all quiet again and reid is facing the wall, unable to move and it's silent. THAT'S HOW MUCH I GOT FROM THAT LITTLE FIC LOLOL
that's one of the things i loved so much about nathan's episode, the fact that he left reid's card on the table, just, whatever his reasoning, he wanted reid there to see how quickly he was crumbling and to maybe help him and the way the therapists latch onto that, so truee, and just this song in general, nathan didn't ask to be like this, no one would, and he's just looking for help, looking for dr. reiddd
IT'S KINDA NICE COMING HOME TO A POTENTIAL PSYCHOPATH RIGHT RIGHT. thisss. baby nathan, so insecure, he can't possibly have someone like reid in his life for real, it's gotta end sometime, there's really no way he deserves someone like reeeid. and just always waiting for reid to actually kick him out, nooo, neverrr, reid wouldn't even think about it, rejecting the kid, there's no wayyy. fuck I JUST WANT THEM TO BE HAPPY lolol oh and nathan wearing reid's clothes? WEARING REID'S CLOTHES? I CAN'T EVEN.
reid waking up from nightmares and nathan being there, being stronger for once, and trying to comfort reid but he can't help the way he gets off on reid's ticking heartbeat, the fear in his eyes, so he kisses him and i wonder if it's difficult for nathan, wanting to be a comfort to reid, trying to make him feel safe but there's this thing inside him that won't let him completely do that because it's the cool sweat on reid's forehead, the way his breathing is all staccato, these things make him want when he should only be givinggg why is everything so angstyyy lol and reid giving in when nathan kisses him, even though he's knows it's not totally right, because he really is a fucked-up kid but what does that make reid?