Omg ikr, the Okkervil River lyrics? In the early stages of making this I wasn't sure if I wanted it to be set in a universe where Nathan had actually killed anyone yet or not, and I had another Okkervil River song at first that was all about killing a girl and how easy it was and how he wanted to do it again. NOT EVEN KIDDING. That band scares me.
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David Thomas Broughton! He's just like this weird experimental folk singer from my town, I sort of forgot that probably no one else would have heard of him. I've been to see him live a few times and it's such a weird experience, because everything is so repetitive and layered and his voice DOES sound like he's speaking a different language sometimes, and idk it's almost trance-like. I really, really love what you said about that song linking up to that ficlet, like a lot. It's almost the darkest song and the darkest ficlet, in a way. (Aaaand yeah, Nathan left to jerk off. WHICH IS SO FUCKED UP and like, offensive, like belittling someone else's trauma like that, only Reid has never induced that reaction in anyone before and so it sort of feels a little bit good, WHY IS THAT SUCH A THING? I'm obsessing over it.)
I feel like with Nathan's insecurity and self-hatred and everything, he would be totally convinced that he doesn't deserve any of this, what Reid's giving to him. And so he's just kind of savouring it, trying to get everything that he can out of it while it lasts. (And god I have such a thing for clothes-sharing so I HAD TO ADD THAT IN.
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Date: 2011-03-31 12:12 pm (UTC)♥ Saying nice things about my writing thank youuuuu.
David Thomas Broughton! He's just like this weird experimental folk singer from my town, I sort of forgot that probably no one else would have heard of him. I've been to see him live a few times and it's such a weird experience, because everything is so repetitive and layered and his voice DOES sound like he's speaking a different language sometimes, and idk it's almost trance-like. I really, really love what you said about that song linking up to that ficlet, like a lot. It's almost the darkest song and the darkest ficlet, in a way. (Aaaand yeah, Nathan left to jerk off. WHICH IS SO FUCKED UP and like, offensive, like belittling someone else's trauma like that, only Reid has never induced that reaction in anyone before and so it sort of feels a little bit good, WHY IS THAT SUCH A THING? I'm obsessing over it.)
I feel like with Nathan's insecurity and self-hatred and everything, he would be totally convinced that he doesn't deserve any of this, what Reid's giving to him. And so he's just kind of savouring it, trying to get everything that he can out of it while it lasts. (And god I have such a thing for clothes-sharing so I HAD TO ADD THAT IN.